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I saw a white envelope through the window. I dismissed it as another promotional/notificational letter. I stepped in as usual, I took the envelope and flipped it over. On it was the logo. My heart started thumping really fast. I ripped it open. I tore the envelope away and fumbled to unravel the contents inside. I opened it up with thoughts running through my mind... [We are sorry to inform you......] Yet, this was what I saw..  Gosh... A smile just spreaded across my face, and I can't even remember how many rounds I spinned across the living room. I pushed the letter into mummy's hands and asked her to read. She said she couldn't.. haha. [due to her long sighted-ness and poor english] I gladly read to her. I was superbly happy. I guess no one would wana go through what I went through to get in. I'll share of the goodness of God to you guys someday. Yes and Amen! Not only that, today, I had my first customer for my amway business. It's really amazing. God has been helping me bit by bit. Even when I was unwilling, He encouraged my weary heart. I'm more comforted that I'm not alone at all in this. Plus ++++++++ I can go Batam!!!! HAHA. Okay, here's why I'm also happy. I usually don't tell mummy that I'm going overseas. I usually wait till everyone in the group is confirmed going and we've booked and all, then I'll tell her. Well, same for the Batam trip, which is just 3 days away only. I just told her after I received my letter. Joc: Mummy, friday wen bing's coming over to stay hor.. *anticipates* Mummy: Why eh? Joc: Well, because we are going out the next day tog. *silence* Joc: Er...we're going to batam... Mummy: Oh, Batam dangerous ar... [So soft and she heard me....] Joc: *immediately* ER... we've got 3 guys with us!!! 3 guys who are NS-MEN!!! *flexed my arm muscles* Mummy: Dangerous ar... Joc: We'll pray before we go!!! Mummy:......... silent means consent. Yayness. Even though I'm 21, I'm still mummy's lil girl!!! Happy means happy! So much to thank God for today. I simply grateful that He never leaves nor forsakes me. He's gotta love me that much to be here for me. I'll smile in my dreams tonight. =) 21 years of breath. 21 years of health. 21 years of joy. 21 years of sadness. 21 years of ups. 21 years of downs. 21 years of smiles. 21 years of cries. 21 years of thanksgiving. 21 years of everything under the hands of God. Ask me if I'm happy today... I am. All for one reason, that I am alive and well today because of God. To my dearest friends, I'm thankful for today. I'm thankful I've known you and our paths met. I'm thankful to be healthy and well. I've wishes today. I've wished them to God, praying all will come to pass. Psalm 139:4 Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord. Well, to me, this psalm holds much meaning for me throughout my growing years. I'm happy today, because I'm 21 today. =) It has been a good week. Lydia has started working at NYDC too. Everyone seemed really curious about her. Well, God has been faithful. I've been well and all. I'm thankful fo the people at work. There's izhar who has made me laughed real hard. There's tung who's fierce on the outside, but really soft and nice on the inside. (a soft toy it seems...) There's shen who's a half indian, half a.. There's xun who's not a tad taller, but 2 heads taller. There's ah kong who always smile and calls me "Loi Yan" (woman in canto.) There's william who loves bearing his big white belly. =D There's clamhead who loves bullying me. There's vincent who's really blur. There's prila who's always here. I'm having mental battles regarding alot of things. Well, i'm thankful there's always VJBEE around. They make me feel that I'm never alone. Ben always gives me an assuring hug when I come to work. Vel always cheers me up with her smile. Ng always calls me when her tummy calls out. Chuah always assure me when something just don't go right. They're really important to me. I'm thankful Christmas's here again. So blessed to spend so many Christmases with them. Christmas - Christ, My Awesome Saviour. To God am I thankful. Well, there are some misses here and there. It's been long since I've seen some people. I miss jus and sean. the NYDC gang. I dreamt of you again. Hmm... [Though time blurs our vision, it opens the window of our heart. -Goong] It was a heart wrenching meeting yesterday. What I saw was a father's humble plea for people to help. His heart was broken. He laid down his pride. He humbled himeself. He has cried days for her. He was going all out to win his daughter's heart back. But his daughter was still stuck in her cinderella story. Thinking that there will be a happily ever after. All I can do now is to pray. For restoration. For her eyes to be open to see.. her father's love for her. As I told him, "It's been hard on you." Tears inevitably welled up in my eyes. My face muscles cringed. My heart softened. It seemed like then and there, I was walking down my very own memory lane. It's been hard too.. on my father. As he shared his heart out, I felt he resembled my dad. Who was there to pick me up when I fall? My dad. Who was there to stand up for me? My dad. Who was the one who solved my problems when i ran into them? My dad. Who laid down his pride just so I can keep mine? My dad. My daddy loves me. My Father in heaven loves me too. I am a blessed child. I feel bad... Because I was away from my blog for so long... But.... I'M BACK! Busy itinery. Work. Visit to Doulos. Taiwanese Dramas. My family. My friends. Life's simple pleasures. I've finally finished one of the thousands of Taiwanese dramas. It's the 2nd Taiwanese drama that I stay up late to finish. Miss No Good's its title. Most known it as Campus Shrewd. The female lead, Xiao Hua, has taught me very beautiful things. The greatest thing I've learnt, is to be happy. She was insulted by the famous stylist, Tang Men, in the fashion world. She was deemed as an "Idiotic Christmas Tree". Yet she could smile and be happy through it all. The other girl, elegant and pretty, was jealous of her. Because both Tang Men and the guy she likes - Jia Si Le, fell in love with Xiao Hua. She was lamenting and crying out to Tang Men, "Why an ordinary girl like her can be so confident?" Tang Men simply answered, "It's not that she's confident of herself, It's just that she doesn't hate herself." Powerful. Most of us dislike more than 1/2 of how we are. Flabby Arms. Muffin Hips. Chubby Cheeks. Chunky Calves. My inadequacies it is. Well, the drama reminded me of clamhead. Whenever I laugh at his double chin, or commented that he seemed er..fat-ter, he'll say, "I don't care!" It's like my opinion does not affect who he is. He is who he is. It's like clamhead's happy the way he is. Well, Joc ain't gona care how I look either. I'm gona take care of myself. However way I would turn out, I won't hate it. I would be happy. I would also want to learn to be happy. Day in day out. No point dwelling on things that just simply bring me to tears. One way to be happy is to appreciate the people around me. I miss God. I miss how I was this close to Him. *puts thumb and index finger together* Things has got to change. God has been around. I need to notice His presence and not pretend that I don't see Him anymore. I saw Doulos last week. Couldn't have been more nostalgic. Honestly, I had wished I'd sailed with them. Sailed with the purpose of helping the needy. I miss the days when I had dial 9s, never limped up and down the gangway, walked through and through the ship to clean aircon filters, played underground church, huddled in my comfy 211 cabin, had 'xiao qiangs' running across my face as I was asleep, puked 7 times in one voyage, rejoiced over people receiving Jesus Christ into their lives, smiled and marvelled at the wonders of God, hugged the kids, Nooa, Jaz, Sophia, Caitlyn, Daniel, hanged out at the fun deck with Abby and Sarah, enjoyed crazy moments with the Batangas Steppers, ran out of the ship just half an hour before curfew time with Di to buy taiwan noodles for the last time before we left Kao Shiung, had Hot Gigantic Yam milk tea in Taiwan, shared the love of God to people I've never met, witnessed countless miracles, (on board, you'll see miracles everyday.) experienced the life in an engine room, sailed with over 300 brothers and sisters from 40 over countries, stood at the bow of the ship taking in the view, was in charge of altering the speed of the ship as we manouvered into Kao Shiung, had the special privilege to be on board God's ship. This list goes on. How thankful am I? *stretches out my arms* This thankful. God, for You alone I'll live. [It's easy to say I want to die for Christ, but it ain't easy to say I want to live for Christ.] HAHA. My deepest apologies for a stale blog. Well, life's been a whole lot laughters and crap. Good thing, God's been around. Well, I'm very thankful for good things in life. First up! Bing has been lovingly attached to jere! 08/11/08 2323 hours Fio has been happily attached for say.. 4 months and 4 days now.. God has been faithful to my girlies. I can't be thankful enough. Nothing I want more for the both of you than for you to be happy. I met Jas 2 weeks ago. I met Ian 2 days ago. Loads of misses. Loads of laughters. Stories of the army days. I look forward to jas, kha, and ian's pop day! I'm simply thankful that my brothers have been well. God has been so good to me. VJBEE. I miss them. They're my family, really. We lived, studied, played, laughed, cried, hugged, ALTOGETHER. Saying I love and miss them has been my daily routine. Work... Hmm... I'm pretty lost about what I should decide.. To stay or to move on.. I don't feel at home any longer.. On sat was one happy and sad day altogether. Happy because clamhead was around to make me laugh. Sad because things at work aren't just good anymore. I miss the old days.. I really do.. Well, life's been colourful for me. It's everchanging. However, I'm thankful that God is neverchanging. I'm really excited. I'm gona see sarah and abby in a while. Gona visit our home again. I miss them so much. Ciao for now... Sorry for the staleness of my blog.. HAHA. Been out of town and busy. Well, will have more frequent updates though. Today was a happy shift working with fio. Ultimately fun whenever i'm with her. We were laughing and having so much fun throughout the whole shift. I thank God she was around. Fio: Joc, i cook green bean soup for you one day. Me: Yeek..i don't want.. i don't like green bean soup. Fio: Orh..then i cook red bean.. Me: No!! I don't like all the bean bean soup.. Fio: Oh..no wonder...beans make you grow tall... Me: (exasperated!!) no lor!!! I...I drink lots of milk!! Fio: Joc ar... (controlling her laughter) Milk ar..strengthens bones, don't lengthen them.. She trails off and LOL! Yah.. so you can expect the butt spanking all around nydc. It was so fun simply sharing and working and supporting each other. =) I felt blessed. As with bing, God has always been faithful. We had a great dinner, a wonderful time to share our hearts. I thank God. All i pray for is a wonderful day to look forward to this weekend. =) MY LIFE  Heyo, Jocelyn's me. You can call me Joc. I'm not tall. =( I'm dimpled-face. My pig sty looks half as good now. I flush red when i'm embarrassed and when i drink. I am a DINOsaur. Not exiting extinction as of yet. I don't eat potatoes, while others eat hokkien mee. I'm a true blue Singaporean. I'm 20 and still counting. I love my part time vocation serving at NYDC alongside with a crazy bunch. I've always loved VJBEE. I enjoying seeing fio with her baby and she calls me 'baby' accidentally. =S Everything about Korea and Korean is dope. Du du undyingly craves for solid gold and oatmeal raisin, so pamper it, won't you? Perks for work - Magnolia Go! Choco Malt Drink. I'll cheer up for sure if you bring me dark chocos from Korea - Dream Cacao. I found my supply in Singapore! Did i say i like orange? No. I adore orange, the colour. I see new perspectives, through the lenses of jethro(now nae sarang)and holga. In my life, I choose to desire God above everything else. He is no fool to lose what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose. - Jim Elliot TAG ME MY LOVELYS Aunty Ben Bing Claire Corny di Evan Fio Ian Isabelle Jere Joelle Joey Josel Kha Ning Ong Ji Pauline Phebs Prila Roy Rui Xiang Sandy Shei Pin Sin Yi Tina Zul MY MEmories January 2007 February 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 February 2009 March 2009 March's Events 7th March - Batam Trip! 8th March - Bing and Jere's 4th Month 12th March - VIP Rally 21th March - Aunty's Birthday 24th March - Malacca Trip 25th March - Bing's Birthday 27th March - Fio and Paul's 8th Month My heart song images: photobucket designer: /?s}summerkisses} |