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well. besties, we are. thank God. if i ever doubt if we're besties again, well, God, You've just got to assure my fragile heart, we are. thankfulness fills my heart. sweetness covers me. i even smile in my dreams. besties, we are, and will be, always. bee, trust God for your bestie to return. working has been pretty much a big part of me. but i'll never give up any part of my life for work. it ain't purely for money that i worked for, because it's more of a need than want. God, You see the needs in my life, dragging along my clink-clonks of desires, only You can bring them all together. In unity. Mummy needs money. So does Daddy. I need too. Hows? nice people at work, they encourage and teach. i pray that God, You'll let me feel really at ease there. Thank God for ian, fio, kha and bing. blessed company. I know You'll make a way. nothing that drops from heaven, but something that's of divinity. i believe. God, i want to go missions. for a long long time. Is that Your way or mine? If it's mine, shut it off, it may be of selfish origins. If it's Yours, let it burn with an unquenching fire, that i may know, it's selfless. hais..admitted. i am lazy. paper's tomorrow, and here i am blogging. i don't know. maybe it's an avenue out to release stress. i've read all the blog entries i've typed. some were heart wrenching. some joyful. but i see something. i see transformation. i see growth. in me. whoa. God, You're working in ways that i cannot see. i'm thankful. because even though Your ways ain't obvious, or pleasing at that point of time, i've seen how i've been... moulded. shaped. transformed. Anyone who sees this, i'm telling you, God is real. you can think i'm insane or lying, but He is. He is real in His love too. He loves me. even His thoughts for me are like the sand on the beach. countless. imagine someone who thinks of you all the time, it can only be God. God, if i ever say i hate You, remind me. Your love is everlasting. Hana nim Sarang Hamnida - I love You, God. well, cobwebs ey. yah. i've been tired and er..well..lazy. been working the weekends out. enjoyed last friday to the max. i never knew work could be so fun. with ian, fio, bing, kha, sean, justin, samuel, sherwin.. and me of course. we looked like a gang in black. justin, our head. we, the chiong-sters. chilled out at mac. i simply love that moment. sunday was a happy day too. played with kirby and hong yan during work. customer praised me. i cut myself to top it off. well, blessing in disguise. cut myself me: ahh..blood. fio: aiyo. yan: wha..we got plaster. walked to cold side. paul: (brings the basket down) here, here plaster. poh soon: quick take plaster. jessie: oh, go wash first. paul: don't put plaster immediately, dab it first. walked to floor. fio: joc joc, you okay not. continues cleaning condiment bottles. yan: haiyo, don't do le. let me..let me do it. me: (insisted, despite the pain) it's okay. walked to cashier. paul: are you okay? whoa...whispers of love. i felt loved. on a lighter note. i've finished 3 papers. 3 down, 1 to go. i just wana say thank you. thank you to all who have encouraged me. haha. thinking back at how i treated everyone when i was stressed, i chuckled. it was bad. thank you jas, kha and gab for that torturous day. sorry if you've felt you've been enslaved. but i felt really blessed. haha. stress control. well, i still don't really know where i stand in your heart. as time pass, and memories fade, i don't think it matters anymore. just look at corney, bee and me. passion camp. 
I thought you were always there beside me. but it turned out the laughters i heard.. are mine alone, resounding in the silence of my head. my heart ached when i realised i'm no longer the shoulder for you to lean on. i never hear from your heart again, only whispers from endless memories. we WERE besties. Are we still? My heart chooses to comfort and say Yes. but my mind has denied it all. I cried to God. I wondered if He heard me. Here i am.. in the silence of my room again. The very question remained. Are we still besties? hehe back by popular demand. more food pics! Feast on Friday Tomato Crab .jpg) er.. (hong zao ji)red chicken in rice wine  yummy~.jpg) Yee Fu Mee My fav's Rojak.  I'm too pampered. =) MY LIFE  I am Jocelyn Hannah. I was baptised on 7th February 2010. I am 22 and still counting. I love VJBEE and we celebrate 10 years. I am amazed at everything about Korea and Korean. I still love orange, the colour. I love Da Tou, Mini Tou and new addition, Flimso. I am God given. In my life, I choose to desire God above everything else. He is no fool to lose what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose. - Jim Elliot TAG ME MY LOVELYS Aunty Ben Bing Claire Corny di Evan Fio Ian Isabelle Jere Joelle Joey Josel Kha Ning Ong Ji Pauline Phebs Prila Roy Rui Xiang Sandy Shei Pin Sin Yi Tina Zul MY MEmories January 2007 February 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 February 2009 March 2009 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 March's Events 4th April - Ong Ji's Bday 8th April - Bing and Jere's 17th Month 9th April - Mommy's Bday 12th April - Tina's Bday 19th April - School Officially Commences 22nd April - Sabrina's Bday My heart song |