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haiyo..why is the EMO SAGA so prominent..it doesnt seem to die down after so many days.. or is it because i choose to dwell..hahas haiyo.. it seems like it's because i'm leaving..leaving for 2 months..will things still be the same..?? will we be estranged.. will we be awkward.. will we even talk to each other when we pass each one by.. i think i'm missing all of u already, even before i embark.. think this is what it takes to really follow Christ.. we need to leave everything behind and pursue Him wholeheartedly.. will U still accept me, God? even when i leave with a half-hearted heart.. one question : will things still be the same? i think everything will change, but change will remain the same.. back to mugging.. emo-ing in progress.. why why..this is an emo period..gosh..there's much feelings being invested, i should say thrown, into this period of time. is this a chosen period? or just because we are being influenced by one another.. Emo vs Having Worries. Conclusion: Having worries is normal and part and parcel of life, being emo is dwelling on our worries, which is a sin.. it really is, because God has commanded us to not worry.. not that He promised a worry-free life, but He wants us to trust Him even in our worries.. hmm.. we should, in fact, looked to God, our Most High.. we always think- 'whoa, how am i ever gona get out of this..', 'can i ever surrender or let go..' who told u we cant?? Believe no longer the lies of the evil one..he's out to steal, kill and destroy..have u felt it?? that he stole ur heart, killed your joy and destroyed your hope? i felt it too eh.. but i remembered God showed me this when i was at the lowest peak of my life last year.. [Psalm 51:10-12 Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.] i remembered all i could pray was 'restore to me the joy of your salvation' i kept praying this..and God started to heal my broken heart.. we always think it's shattered beyond hope..but God is Jehovah Rophe - He heals. My friends, brothers and sisters, never lose hope, never.. [Job 1:21b The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.] Job praised the name of the Lord, even when his life was a total wreck.. saw this on someone's msn nick, 'I want to praise You be it good times or bad' seldom we can make this statement, but out of our agony, we can choose to praise God.. it's a CHOICE, made by our will, not one that is based on feelings.. "ai mo"[a word bong and i came up with] seems to be rising too..it's not healthy, peeps.. i believe it's a warfare that we're in, peeps.. [Philippians 6:13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.] i believe the day of evil has come..for us.. but stand firm in the Lord.. Surrender. Forgive. Let Go. DRAMA PRODUCTION'S today...hahahs...it was so fun..before it started, kha kha and i were at the backstage, he ranting at me, "i hate you", "i dislike you", and i was saying, "sorry eddie, i'm sorry", just to get into the mood..hahhas.. thought it went pretty cool..just that teacher say cant hear me sometimes..so hard to gek-be emo and yet project my voice..hahas..till the last part, kha kha slapped wo!! i was telling him, "kha kha, you must slap me.." and so he did..it was a hard one..hahas that lasted for quite some time..then i reacted to the shock just as well..carrying on my line..i loved that part alot..hahas sadist.. enjoyed today..so many peeps came..was surprised tt prisy and ronald came too..then saw ong ji..hahas..so funny ah..so thankful and happy that u guys came..brought a lot encouragement to me..really wana go deeper into the film and theatre..just like what the lecturer say when she see any audience, "take me..come on, take me.." hahas i want that too..hahas.. shin goon, this is our pic!! hope to catch up with u after ur papers.. shin goon, oyiti!!!! 
Had drama today and yesterday..it was very exhausting..hahas peeps, u should join drama too..it's really cool to do a production..love it so.. Yesterday, miss simone even sent kha kha and i home..hahas it was so cool..suzuki swift..it was as though we were in a race car or something..hahha vvroooommm... realised something, feelings come and go easily, in drama, and in life.. it was so easy to be angry this moment and be loving next moment..hahas wonder how did i manage such a feat..tmr's the big day..the PRODUCTION!!! suddenly, the feeling's starting to sink in..knowing that many peeps will be there..am i prepared...i'm pretty shaky..hahas..it's really fun to be a part of it and i wish there will be more than this..that i can drama-mama again..hahas.. i believe i will miss the peeps and i will definitely miss..acting.. hahas it seems like my whole life's already a stage.. an ever readiness to react to circumstances.. maybe because this is what life has been all about.. sometimes the pressure of the things of the world affects me.. now Jesus, i understand and feel it..what it means that your yoke is easy and your burden is light..[Matthew 11:29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.] where does our weariness and burdens come from? The world. Pride, Greed, Malice, Anger, Jealousy..it runs in the world..it's overwhelming to know what the world offers..but thank God, tho we're here, we are commanded to live as aliens, strangers to the world..for we don't belong here..it's comforting to know that God You care for us..You care for me..i believe You see all that is happening in my life and at home..Father, may You intervene.. [Matthew 6:33 Seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well] i wana seek You above anything else..when i focus on You, everything else disappears..the world..the lies..the pain.. went to cut my hair today..aaaahhhh....it's so..soo..er..short?? hahas it's kinda shoulder length anyway..just that it feels weird not being able to put my fingers thru my long hair and run them down..hahas..made some major decision yesterday..it may be too early to know the outcome of the decision, but i've decided..i'm gona wait..it'll require patience and perserverance..Lord, please lead and guide me as you know best.. [Isaiah 40:30-31 Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.] whatever decision i've made, God, may you assure me that it is your will that is done and not mine.. [Father, You are first in my life and the person before me will be second.] a promise that i will hold on to.. Before After SMAD was a great time and this is what my dearest ger gave..my fav-Ritter Sport..she made the bouquet herself.. it was really sweet..literally!! thanks ah ling, i appreciate you. =)
And i surprised her at her baptism on Christmas Day.. real blessed to know that she is seeking the Lord fervently. [Jeremiah 29:13-14 You will seek me and find me. When you seek me with all your heart, I will be found by you, declares the Lord.] 
ah-hah! =) it seemed like the favourite exclamation i'll make..shin goon always make fun of me..hais.. ah-hah! this was how i feel today..exclaiming in my heart at every lil thing..hahas.. today was SMAD and it was pretty cool, esp the photo-taking..hahas my favourite part!! popping my head everywhere possible..hahas..nope, my ankle didnt stop me at all..hahas.. it was really very touching to see both my gers today, yah it's both.. it was well needed..think it was more than having my gers come and support or appreciate me, it was an affirmation of my love for them.. it was then, that i realised i loved them this much.. *stretches hands outwards* hahas.. today, i felt this - 'love was in the air' i felt very comfortable..in the presence of the crusaders..people i'm comfortable with..it was like..like i was being embraced within.. i believe everyone wants to feel this way too.. i'm beginning to feel love for others..more and more prominent.. Father, help me to love even more than this..i wana give others the love i have received from You too..i find it's really a privilege to give so abundantly..seeing smiles on their faces..i gave love, and i felt loved. How amazing, God..the way You work.. i'm always awestruck by this grace and mercy you gave and still giving.. =) Just wana show u guys what i did at the fire fighting course. This is a Breathing Apparatus. I carried a huge oxygen tank behind me that weighed ONLY 12.6kg, as the instructor claimed. hahas.. the oxygen smelt pretty nice..hahas..er yah.. =)  Some MemoriesMy family and i had prata after church last sun, and we saw this kitty..it has 3 other siblings..all of them are just a week old..reminded me of shin goon's kitty..hahas sweet isnt she.. =)  This is my funky 'ger-friend'..she's quite stylo.. ah yi, my chi-na lao shi =) Hahas..cant remember when's this..just evan and i chilling at swensen's..cool ice cream..brrr..=)  This lil ger beside me's kyrie.. a beautiful 4 year old who looks pretty ang moh-nised =)    And this is her handsome young brother with huge beady eyes..Ryan aka ry-ry =)
I love the pic below the most..it was at that precise moment when ry-ry was smiling that the camera went ka-cha..realised he has eye bags..aww...so cute ar.. =) This picture is very nicely taken too. thanks to kha kha's ping guo.. =) Check this out! i've made this out of chilli[i didnt bend the chilli, they look like this when i picked them up]..cool stuff eh..i did this at a supermarket..i love supermarkets =) This is kinda like the first entry for this blog.. It's pretty cute and ORANGE!! hahas.. this will be where i type things that i dont say.. =) just ended drama today.. forgotten some lines and i felt pretty bad.. but gona trust God for everything.. comfortably sitting where i am, in crusade room. it still feels like a second home even after 2 years. =) feeling apprehensive about certain things in life, unsure of directions and all.. it seemed and felt as though i'm waiting for something..something that will BLAST my life off.. there seemed to be alot of things on hand that needs immediate attention, but i really duno where to start.. hais.. but life goes on.. the road ahead seems long and never ending, but i know, by faith, that at the end of it...i'll see Jesus, veiled in all of His glory, waiting for me and cheering me on. I look forward to that day where i'll bask in His joy and rest in His peace. That day aint far..and i know it.. MY LIFE  I am Jocelyn Hannah. I was baptised on 7th February 2010. I am 22 and still counting. I love VJBEE and we celebrate 10 years. I am amazed at everything about Korea and Korean. I still love orange, the colour. I love Da Tou, Mini Tou and new addition, Flimso. I am God given. In my life, I choose to desire God above everything else. He is no fool to lose what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose. - Jim Elliot TAG ME MY LOVELYS Aunty Ben Bing Claire Corny di Evan Fio Ian Isabelle Jere Joelle Joey Josel Kha Ning Ong Ji Pauline Phebs Prila Roy Rui Xiang Sandy Shei Pin Sin Yi Tina Zul MY MEmories January 2007 February 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 February 2009 March 2009 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 March's Events 4th April - Ong Ji's Bday 8th April - Bing and Jere's 17th Month 9th April - Mommy's Bday 12th April - Tina's Bday 19th April - School Officially Commences 22nd April - Sabrina's Bday My heart song |
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