I've been feeling weird lately..getting emo all of a sudden, and cheery the next..is something wrong?? hmm..weird.. God.. why am i feeling all that i'm feeling.. part of moulding me? growing me? Father, i feel far from you and far from people already.. i think i'm afraid that i do not like your plans.. read tina's blog.. understood it. that i do not come to You with expectations and expect You to give me the best solutions to my endless questions. it is just coming to You, admitting that God i'm crumbling.. hmm..u probably didn't know..well i guess this world we live in is a masquerade.. [Masquerade, paper faces on parade. Masquerade, hide your face so the world will never find you. Masquerade, every face a different shade. Masquerade, look around there's another mask behind you. Masquerade - The Phantom of Opera] i just feel that no one can be 100% open abt him/herself in front of everyone.. joc joc, remember we're human afterall.. yeah, i am human.