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And the human body, a dollar's worth of chemicals, becomes, according to the apostle Paul, the temple of God's own Spirit. [I thought of a rather cruel trick i once played on a wasp. He was sucking jam on my plate, and i cut him in half, He paid no attention, merely went on with his meal, while a tiny stream of jam trickled out of his severed oesophagus. Only when he tried to fly away did he grasp the dreadful thing that had happened to him. It is the same with modern man. The thing that has been cut away is his soul. - George Orwell] [My natural desires, i now see, are pointers to the supernatural, not obstacles. In a world fallen far form its original design, God wants us to receive them as gifts and not possessions, tokens of love and not loves in themselves. I have learned to pray, following Augustine, not that my desires be quenched or taken away, rather that my scattered longings be gathered together in their Source, who alone can order them. - Philip Yancey] Some of the things i read and realised from 'rumours of another world'. one thing that caused me to stop in my tracks is, "I have learned to pray, following Augustine, not that my desires be quenched or taken away, rather that my scattered longings be gathered together in their Source, who alone can order them." Wowed me. i used to think desires are not that nice. i tried suppressing it, resisting it, ignoring it. it never went away. Yah, it's true, desires will never go away. the more i suppress, the more it grew. Uh huh. i have to bring my shillings of desires before the One who first instilled desires. He alone CAN order them. =) Haha. Woohoo.. feel so happy to realise this. it ain't wrong to desire. it is a gift. we just have to direct them to God. Tonight we had a mini feast at bedok block 85. haha. binged Out with kha, ning, samuel, aaron and jeshua. =) bak chor mee. sambal stingray. peanut and sesame tang yuan. barbecued chicken wings. sugar cane juice. dark chocolate toblerone. haha. binged Out. All for love, a Father gave For only love could make a way All for love, the heavens cried for love was crucified Oh, how many times have I broken Your heart But still You forgive if only I ask And how many times have You heard me pray Draw near to me Everything I need is You My beginning, my forever Everything I need is You Let me sing all for love I will join the angel song Ever holy is the Lord King of glory, King of all All for love a Savior prayed Abba Father, have Your way Though they know not what they do Let the cross draw man to You, to You To You, to You You gave me friends, all for love. You shield me from harm, all for love. You held tight onto my hand when i tried running away from You, all for love. Jesus, You were crucified for my sake, all for love. You are no longer angry at me, all for love. It was all for love. Lord, my heart aches knowing that You love me so very much. i have hurt You in my sins. i lay down my heart's desires. i lay down my pride to come before you in humility. Lord, i.. love you. a confession it is. Went Ubin today. Kha, jas, phebs, alvin, gab, shei pin, bing and me. it was nearly cancelled. Rain was pouring, but sunshine came after the rain. Ubin was on again. Really cool as we just kept cycling. Smoked lobster again. hais. my arms are red this time too. As i type this entry, my butt hurts. oh well. 5 hours or so of cycling. she was riding.. a hundred miles an hour.. in the wrong direction.. (straight to the bushes) haha. she wasn't lucky to have escaped the swamp. it was God holding onto her. Thank God. fio joined us for dinner at Carl's. i'm glad that we all had dinner together. I'm also glad that i finally went home together with my beloved brothers - kha and jas. Ages it has been since we head home together. i thank God for that fellowship since 2 years ago. As always, we'll talk about hearty things. tomorrow heading out with EA team to mind's cafe. hmm. ages since i caught up with them too. God, honestly, i feel blessed. the things you've bestowed to me.. well, i never asked for so many things, but you gave this many. i'm just grateful and sad. grateful that i know You, sad that my friends don't know You. told them about You, but they just ignore You. Lord, please give them the chance to hear about You again. I ask of You. You've taught me alot of things. things about how to live this life. [how can we be loved when no one loves] Back from Passion Camp. Went to work today. I was dozing off at work. Haha. oh well. I enjoyed myself. the fellowship. the games. later in the day, we're going cycling at Ubin. life just seems packed, ain't fulfilling. On my way home, i heard a christian girl shared some stuff with her friends on board a bus today. christian girl: i talked to my (some leader in youth) about my problem. she just told me to read bible and pray to God. always say the same thing to me when i talk to her. In another part of the conversation. christian girl: the worship, they just pray and sing song. i just can't experience God. apparently, she's also one of the leaders in youth. Hmm. i wonder - God, how do i enjoy my relationship with You, instead viewing of it as a routine lifestyle. can we start all over again? i look like a red lobster now. smoked lobster. It hurts on my back more than my face. So much for using sun tan oil. thought about eternity today. felt weird. can we really be perfect beings in heaven? well yes, if God says so. tomorrow's passion camp. looking forward to see most of the freshmen. anticipated time with some close friends. God, i'm living for you. B & Js (S'mores), black sesame milk tea and sng buey milk tea. All mixed together, definitely junk. But with 2 willing dude and dudette with me. kha and pheb. beyond junk, i feel inadequate. 'Faith is not believing God can, it's believing God will.' God, how arh, i no faith eh. It pains me to be this cold to you, but i can hardly put a finger to it as to why things became like this. It pains me that certain relationships are broken. It pains me that i choose who to love. It pains me as there's no second chance to right the things I've done wrong. It's painful. busy as i am, i wana blog this down. today, i was waiting in line for the toilet.(not the main point) fio called. she told me "joc, i've got an exciting news to tell you." i thought it was about CM. but anyway, "she told me of a voucher she received." the letter was sent to her mailbox which had no name of the anonymous giver. well, anonymous ma! haha. anyway, it had an additional sentence, "奉主耶穌的爱". Gosh, was that sentence assuring! fio said, "God really provided. Now my mum can use that to buy groceries." I felt the joy that exuded from fio. i was really joyful for her. MY LIFE  I am Jocelyn Hannah. I was baptised on 7th February 2010. I am 22 and still counting. I love VJBEE and we celebrate 10 years. I am amazed at everything about Korea and Korean. I still love orange, the colour. I love Da Tou, Mini Tou and new addition, Flimso. I am God given. In my life, I choose to desire God above everything else. 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