Well, it was crossroads today.
i was just feeling mundane and all,
but altogether thankful to God.
Hahah. Weird me.

But I'm truly thankful.
So thankful that i didn't realised that i was more than blessed.
Imagine if i were to be Kazakhstan, i may just be any college student.
I don't think I'll be bold about my faith.
Hmm, but i feel that, probably i'm bold,
because Singapore's pretty safe.
I won't be forbidden entirely to share the love of Jesus.
I can mention God at any corner round the road,
I can share Jesus at every opportunity,
I can tell people God loves them.

Maybe to most, missions ain't their call.
But i feel strongly for mine.
Hmm. I'm ready to go Thailand, Korea, France, Germany and all.
But i realised i'm afraid to go NAMEstan places.

In Korea, I shared with a few sisters, one night.
One of them asked, "What is my vision?"
I told them, "My vision... is to go anywhere where Jesus is still not heard of, and bring the gospel there."
Hmm. Bold of me huh.
Words of a foolish self. I felt prideful.

God has been placing upon my heart, this burden.
A burden that, i never knew would be upon me.
I yearn for the lost to be saved.
My heart aches for the blind to see.
My uttermost cries out for salvation to spring up.

I'm surprised at myself to be so eager to see God exalted,
Christ be lifted high and,
every child of God to boldly proclaim, "I am the temple of the Holy Ghost."

I'm gona pray ever so intently on my vision.
Directing this desire to God.
Trusting that He will give me the absolute answer to go or not to go.
Even to NAMEstan, for the sake of Christ,
I'll choose His will.

I know that i still have shillings of the world clanging,
seeking for my attention.
but if God is the Almighty One,
won't He settle the debt i owe?

I believe, in my deepest heart,
He will.