wow.
call me stupid, please?

i can't believe i'm this dumb.
if they have a hall of fame for dumb people,
i guess i'll top the charts.

i have hurt you to the extent that i was oblivious of it.
i'm hurt by the hurt i've inflicted on you.
my heart cringed.
it's telling me: "you're finally feeling what i am feeling..."
it was as though,
my heart and i have spoken different languages all this while,
and now,
we're in sync.

Declaration: I'm broken and contrite.
No doubt.
the strong me has came crashing down.
HARD.
my bricks have failed me.


i'm weak now, God.
i feel helpless, but not hopeless.

[i'll find strength in my weakness.]
i'm learning this the hard way round.

I've found: the bottom.
The bottom of my seemingly-bottomless-pit.

Joc's down.
Not well.
Can't help.
Ain't Emo-ing.
Please understand.