hmm.
Declaration:
jocelyn is sad.

It feels as though somehow,
i've lost my joy.
Again.
I've been through this,
and here i am,
back again.

I guess,
because i held on too tightly,
abrasions cover my hands.
i bled.
it hurt.
i knew i was alive.
i still am.

my heart aches,
whenever i think of the past.
we ought to move on,
you would say,
but i'm stopped in my tracks.
you've told me you moved on.
and me...
i'm still stuck in the mud.

happy moments we have once shared.
times where i was there for you,
and i felt that you were there for me.
i smiled at the flashbacks,
but ended up with mere nostalgia lingering in my heart.

I miss.
I miss how we used to be.
I miss the smile on your face when i see you.
I miss the bond we share.
I miss the trust i have in you, no matter what people said.
I miss the times where your assurance shrouds me.
I miss my friend.
Really, I miss.

i have alot to say to you,
but words fail me now.
i guess,
you no longer wish to listen to me.
I've burdened you more than what you can bear.

God,
take my heavy heart and make it light,
will You?

I can't believe i'm tearing.
Again.
My heart has been drowning in its tears.

This is the promise i've made to bing.
[I wish to be the one who dries your tears, not the one who make you tear.]
but i wish you would come and tell me this.

God,
i know things will never be the same again.
but will everything be alright?

[All things work for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28]
I choose to believe,
everything will be alright.