Today was really a weird day.
Guess it was just weird.
hah.
It was meant as a farewell,
but i feel not so.

well, hmm. loads of pics in jethro.
near 200 i guess.
but there was one that i wanted to take very much,
but never did.
guess you wouldn't want to take it then too.

i'm thankful for all the people for their blessings.
i wanted to tell you i'm thankful for you too.
but guess,
anger fills you now.
that you wouldn't hear a word i say.

if it's men's will,
i believe we'll never reconcile.
but if it's God's will,
i pray we will.
When you said, "I pray not..."
hmm.
my heart sank.
but i guess it was because you felt hurt by what i've done.
hmm...
if you hadn't said,
i would still wonder why you're mad at me.

now i know,
i ask for your forgiveness.
i am sorry.
for the juvenile way i've acted,
and treated you.
my friend,
i do miss you.

That day,
i was looking through the photos i've uploaded.
I realised a huge chunk was missing.
In fact, lost forever.
and the pictures were all of you.
i was sad.
i felt scared too.
seemingly, i really did lost you then and there.
i think i feel like it too now.
i didn't express it,
but well...
i feel like i'm losing you.

God,
hear this lil prayer of my heart.
[I miss my friend.
I just want him to know i'm truly sorry,
and that i had never let go of our friendship.
If You will, restore our friendship.
Amen.]