worked at heeren today.
so thankful that even though it was boring most parts,
i enjoyed my time with jamil, lucas, amanda individually.
God was faithful to carry me through,
even though i forgot to commit the day into His hands.

at the end of my shift,
i heard a loud, "annyong ha se yo!"
fio, it was.
she came into the kitchen and hugged me.
"po gu ship po yo (i miss u)", she exclaimed.
i was touched.
really.
because the day before,
she said she'll head home straight after work at wheelock.
but here she was.
her hugs were always so comforting after a long day.
she added, "someone else is here! Mr See is here too."
immediately, i ran out.
hahah.
i was doubly touched to see sher.
told him,
"didn't you see..i was so excited when i saw u...
like how i would be when i see dark chocolate."
(poor analogy, but still..)
then he said, "Just like a kid." -_-"
so i guess...
this is called..er..childlike joy?
the kind of joy that was exuded was simple.
and sweet.
it's a joy that, i believe,
only God can enable in my heart.
i was smiling because my heart was.

then afterwhich,
kha offered to wait for me.
i was triple-ly touched.
he was tired after a long day at ngee ann poly,
yet he still said,
"if you take bus, i'll go to raffles to wait for you,
if you take train, i'll wait at city hall for you."
touched once again.
then as usual,
we had our mac moments after we reached tampines.

i was really thankful to see familiar faces at the end of the day.
honestly, i couldn't be more touched.
that fio and sher walked down,
from wheelock to heeren,
just to accompany me for that few minutes before we parted ways to head home.
and kha,
lunging ping guo and a whole lot of barang barang,
waited for me to head home together.

it's little gestures like this that really showed me,
that God's grace is really sufficient for me.
really.
that i am loved.
that i am worth it all.

i have gone through rough patches with some people lately.
i always wondered what went wrong exactly.
sometimes,
i blame myself.
but yet,
our Father is so full of mercy and grace,
that He used other people to reflect His love for me,
it's everlasting,
to tell me that, "hey, it's okay to not be okay."
i really do not have to be perfect to be accepted.
i am already accepted by the Most High God.
what more can i ask?