supper routine for du du today.
honestly,
i really wonder which days does he not growl.
and if i weren't born in Singapore,
how would du du ever survive.
thank God for kha.
always and ever present.
our 'mac moments' upgraded.
'BCM' moments now.
hahah.

we talked.
conversed.
thankful that we always share so much.
i heard much, i talked much more.
talked about Christ.
a simple truth dawned upon us,
me especially.
hmm...
God had to place His wrath on someone.
a sacrifice was needed.
God ain't a sadist.
He is holy and just and we're not.
We fall short of His glory.
Entirely.
I guessed He had much angst in deciding this.
Man or Jesus.
In my conversation with kha,
I said that if it was man that God had chosen,
He had to endure each time when someone had to be nailed on the cross to atone for his or her sins.
Well,
fact is,
Jesus was chosen.
the Sacrificial Lamb.
On the cross, it is teleo.
teleÑw - teleo
[It is finished.]
once and for all.
our sins were apecho.
a)peÑxw - apecho
[Paid in full.]
in return, we now stand redeemed.
if we still feel bondaged in our lives,
it ain't because Jesus hadn't redeemed us fully,
it's because we hadn't let Him reigned in our lives fully.

Imagine one day,
i decided to pay for your meal and wanted no returns for it, you would be so embarrassed, wouldn't you?
you'll try all means to repay,
somehow or rather,
even when i refuse.
Jesus paid for our lives,
and yet...
our lives,
we scorned,
we mocked,
we hated.
We even blame Him for the plight we're in sometimes,
when, in fact,
it was us who has landed ourselves where we are, always.
we even doubted.
never close to believing that He had done what He did,
to save us.
Save us from a death so cruel,
that Jesus Himself feared.
Plus,
we scarcely thought of wanting to repay Him with our lives.

i was encouraged.
by Lucas.
by Anthony.
by Kha.
by Aylwin.
i was still wondering if i was living life with Christ in me.
they affirmed me.
knowingly and unknowingly.
Lucas.
[...if theres one thing i wanna say..you remind me of Jesus...]
[ ...i didnt compliment you just to make you happy..
but i've seen the little acts you do..
i noe you as the little girl with a loud voice..
with a louder passion for God =D]
hearing this from a non-believer is so assuring.
honest.
Kha.
[joc..how do you find the energy to keep smiling all day..?
maybe because you prayed.
it must be it!
that's why.]
Anthony.
[er..why do you smile so much..
everytime i see you, you're smiling...]
It was only my second time working with Antho.
He came up and talked to me and all.
He shared more than what i would expect from him.
Aylwin.
i barely known him for 2 weeks.
He seemed to have known me for 2 years.
the trust he placed in me...
the way he acknowledges my presence.
the way he's always there to give me his support,
even though it's the other way round most times.
a great manager indeed.

i saw you today.
my heart fluttered like a butterfly.
my cheeks flushed a rosy red.
my ears felt as if they were on fire.
i didn't talk to you.
but you being there made my palms sweat.
serious.
i didn't know why.
i...
i don't wana know why.