It's 4 days since jethro's sick and away.
I'm kinda missing him and all the memories he has brought me.
looking forward to Wednesday.
Really.

Today,
i've made the boldest declaration to jia tung in the presence of many.
Many = prila, zhi hao, siti, kha and clamhead.
Okay, a few maybe.
Somehow we've kinda talked about money and all,
and i went like,
Me: If you have God, you have everything.
Tung: Really??? *doubtful*
Tung: So give me all your money, your atm card.
Then how are you gona come to work?
Me: God will make a way.
Tung: Yah. You'll go like 'Papa, i need money.' ASK.
Me: Try me, i won't ask from my dad at all.
Tung: *surprised* okay, then tell me how you're gona come to work?
Me: God will provide me the money to take transport.
Tung: Okay. You give me your ezlink card.
Me: I'll give you my atm card, my ezlink card and my pay for last month.
You can keep everything. And for one month, i'll survive on God.
You game for it?
Tung: Deal. On. I'm not on the losing end.
Me: Then if this one month i survive on God, i've proven that God exist,
are you gona believe Him?
Tung: No..it's okay you just believe Him can already.
Me: But i'll prove He exist.
Tung: It's okay. Afterall, i'm not on a losing end.
Me: I'm not on a losing end too. *smiles*
Tung shrugged.
Me: So do you want my ezlink card now?
Tung: Why do i need your ezlink card for?
Me: Well, the one month starts today, how about that?
Tung: Aiya...it's okay lar..i was just joking with you.
Me: *smiles*

God,
i thank you for giving me the courage to voice out the truth.
To stand up for what i believe in.
I pray that someday, somehow,
tung will come to know You as well.
He is a nice friend.
A good man that deserves more than what life has got to offer,
and that's salvation.

A heavier note to end,
It has been a tough journey between us.
It's not all about him that has intruded.
It's the simplest thing that i cannot bring myself to do to you-
TRUST.
Excuse me for this period of time.
I need the space to clear my mind.
You've once said,
"they have broken the trust that we have for them,
it's gona take alot for us trust them again.
They have to earn it."

And know this,
You've broken this trust,
and you've got to earn it back.