Watched a video today.
A simple video that reflects reality.
It sets me thinking.
What exactly is reality?
A whole entire country,
or should i say half of a country.
They believed in a fabricated lie,
or was made to believe in a fabricated lie.
We were shown the truth,
so clearly before our very eyes...
and yet we only believed it half-heartedly.

Maybe because they were forced to,
and out of fear,
they obligingly choose to obey the fabrication.
If you can escape,
good.
If you can't escape,
just stay.
If you try to escape,
then pray hard that you'll really escape,
or death's your escape.

And yet,
so many a times,
I, as a Christian,
do not even know why i feel that the truth gets overbearing,
when the truth, in fact, liberates.
We believe the truth,
out of our own will,
yet we dread it.

What an irony.

It really saddens my heart.
I feel so helpless.
God,
i've learnt something.
I need to be thankful.
Thanful for the simple things in life.

I was so sad when jethro died.
Didn't appreciate the new camera at all.
I hated its colour,
i hated it's different,
i hated it's not jethro.
But hey,
i didn't appreciate it being upgraded,
i didn't appreciate it was new,
when i ought to be thankful that it was within warranty.

Well,
내 사랑 shall be his name.
Nae Sarang.
My love.
Named it jaz initially,
hmm..
Jaz Chua Nae Sarang.
HAHA.
Pardon me please,
i simply like to name the things i owned.
Jaz was my favourite kid when i was on the ship.
And ya,
i love Korean alot.

Wanted translation for thankfulness.
It turned out to be "gam sa".
Reminded me of what Ryan told me.
"Thank you very gam sa."
Jong Jun repeated,
"Thank you very thank you."
HAHA.
I miss the kids.

Random things.

Saw a customer's name on the credit card receipt today.
FIONA CHUA.
Fio,
it reminded me of you.
Your name with my surname.

Aylwin sms-ed me today.
I kinda just woke up.
"Call me if can."
Typical ah beng of him.
Called him.
A: You free to talk now?
J: Er..ya? Why?
A: (in chinese) Why you like that one??? @#$$%^& Do you know you're working today?
J: Huh? Er.. I'm working, but not at heeren today.
A: Aiya. Joc ar.. I wanted to call Joyce. HAHAHA.
J: HAHAHA.
J: (got scolded for nothing lor)
A: Sorry ar. So how's your cough now?
J: (coughs) Er..okay lar.
A: Orh. Drink more water ar.
J: Uhn.
Blur like anything.

Clamhead has a new name for me.
Small girl.
Well, he promised not to bully me,
but saturdays after saturdays,
he'll keep up his usual routines - bully me.
I'm not going to see him for one saturday.
Sadded.

Got super clumsy today.
I dropped the empty pitcher on the floor.
It got flung underneath a customer's chair.
Ian said i attracted attention. =(
I dropped the cheese container.
The cheese fell out on the carpet.
Clamhead exclaimed,
"Clumsy with a capital C!"
Climbed the chairs to reach for water inside the coldside.
Bumped my head on the upper shelf.
Tung shouted across,
"You mei you bian ai ar?!"
("Did you become shorter?!"
So clumsy that Hafiz and Prila asked me to be careful not to spill the soup.

Finally,
i've got the chance.
For three years, i was hoping.
I am flying with you.
I really pray that the time together would be amazing.
I pray that God will bring us so much closer.
I look forward with much anticipation.

I'm thankful to God for Prila.
Someone whom i feel that God has brought into my life to bless me.
So much so that a manager i see her not to be,
but a friend.

Khalis is going to NS on the 11th of Sept.
Ian, 13th.
Jason 16th.
I am not looking forward to it.
God,
teach me to accept changes even though i detest it.

Time to sleep now.
Cheerios.