 I ripped this off kha's blog. (hope you don't mind it aye?) I had an amazing time today. Work at eXplorerkid as usual. Had some laughters and frowns, but all in all, people were gracious. They were concerned. They asked after me. Even a simple "Would you want anything?" cheered me up. Over the days, I kept thinking of ways to quit and resign, but it gets harder and harder each day. Uma: "Do you like kids?" Debbie: "How's everything here?" Irene: "Well, you can stay till March..." Jennifer: "I really need you to help with this and that..." Haema: "Thanks for being around to help cover my shift.." Haema's my colleague who has gotten HFM disease. My answer... *smiles* and *nods* People were really concerned. I felt my existence in a place, where I thought only superficiality existed. I'm thankful I've gotten a chance to work there. Honest. However, between NYDC and eXplorerkid, I've made my choice. A hard one that I've contemplated. I hate it when I have to make such decisions.. Well, changes are inevitable. I've got to learn it. After work was what I was looking forward to... I met my dearest Eileens. An old meeting place. A hong kong cafe. Same food, different seats. Whatever that I was feeling, melted away at the sight of the girls. A broad smile just wiped my quivering lips away. The tears that failed to fall became a glint in my eyes. We were so comfortable with each other, I felt like we are a family. After knowing them for so long, I know their idiosyncrasies. When I read the order sheet, "No spring onions!!" I laughed. So ya, I joined them for once, no spring onions. When our noodles came, (they came one set at a time) (a set: a plate of noodles and a bowl of soup) A waiter brought the first set with spring onions, both on the noodles and in the soup.. Ng kicked up a fuss. She muttered above her breath, "Wha...I wrote NO SPRING ONIONS LOR!!!" Chuah smiled and said, "Well, maybe they don't understand english.." Ng, "See I told you....We should have written "CONG" " I looked at my sweeties and laughed. Well as always, I became the "CONG" dumping ground. I uttered, "Well, how do you write "CONG"..?" Ng and I almost uttered together.. but I realised I made a mistake.. Ng: The "cao zi tou".... Me: The "cai zi tou".... *LAUGHS* Well, the night was short, but nonetheless, a great time for reminiscing and catching up. Chuah's celebrating her 2nd month today. I offered her all my smiles, and from the deepest of my heart, I'm so happy for her. I was the only one who guessed that she got hitched. Telepathy it seemed. She had her ups and downs... She bared her heart, I was there when she had to struggle.. She offered to be here when I'm struggling.. Tears welled up in my eyes when I saw her sms. Though we don't meet up weekly, we share a closeness that even I can't put a finger to it.. Chuah's like...like my Silent Guardian. =) Ng.. HAHA.. My apologies.. She's the stark contrast of chuah. Not only physically, but her character. Ng's the one that I quarrelled the most with. So big was one of our fights, the VJBEE's status was shaken. And everyone tried to bring us back tog again. Crappy and a Dreamer she is.. but she shares in my thoughts and life. She asks after me.. She's eager to share her life. We never ran out of things to laugh about. Ng's like...like my "Kai Xin Guo" =) Sadly, Ben ben couldn't join us.. But I was very touched through our conversation. Ben ben: Well, I'll meet you in town, send you back to Pasir Ris to get your pay, and head back to town. Me: Haiyo.. So ma fan.. Don't need lar.. I can head back on my own. Ben ben: Nevermind lar, I'll just send you back.. Don't you know I'm very "ti tie de".. Me: *grins blissfully* Thanks ya ben..but i feel bad.. Ben ben: Haiyo..don't worry.. I'll send you back.. He is indeed considerate. I thought I was the only one who goes the extra mile. Ben went the extra metre-mile. Ben's like..like my Nearly-an-Ezer Kenegdo. =) RX was extremely encouraging. He agonised with me. He went "aiyo..." countless times. He assured me. He promised me his presence. He reminded me of the promises of God, that only He keeps. He brought a smile to my face. [Hahas correction i will always be around k. I dont want to try. Its like giving false hope. Yea do what u do best. Smile. Hahas let God do the healing ok?] I thanked him for trying to be around. He said he doesn't want to try. He will be around. He chose to be around. RX's like..like my Protector. =) Read kha's blog about JP's sermon. Amazing. I've learnt... [Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. Philippian 2:4] [Loners are not wise. Wisdom is found and forged in the fires of commited relationships.] [..the focus is not on how they read or do math, or any other skill or trait. The focus is: Will you count them as worthy of your help and encouragement? Not are they worthy? But will you count them as worthy?] [That is where our humility comes from. We feel overwhelmed by God’s grace: bygone grace in the cross and moment-by-moment arriving grace promised for our everlasting future. Christians are stunned into lowliness. Freely you have been served, freely serve.] ['It was beautiful when Christ put our interests above his own earthly comforts and died for us. It was beautiful when Paul suffered every day to plant the churches that brought us the gospel. It was beautiful when Timothy served side by side with Paul, putting the interests of others first. It was beautiful when Epaphroditus risked his life to complete the Philippian service to Paul. And it will be beautiful in your personal priorities and families and politics as God makes his wisdom grow up among us where the mind of Christ is so alive.] Clamhead's the keeper of my life. HAHA. As so we have joked about it. He'll fend of any threats to protect me. He asked, "How would I know if there are any threats?" Told him, "Use your psychic power." He's always the one that goes, "See lar see lar..I told you so.." He has been around daily. As my alarm, as my crying buddy, as my laughing machine, as clamhead. He simply makes me chuckled silly in front of a handheld device. Clamhead's like..like my Invincible Superhero. =) My phone got extremely cranky. It hangs up on people without me touching it. It snoozes my alarm when I've yet to reach for it. It seemed to have a mind of its own. However, IT WORKS! I was really sadded when it couldn't charged up the night before. Told Daddy about it. He told me it's the battery. I told him it's the phone. He sms-ed me, "I've sent your phone to check. It's spoilt." I was sadden-ed. When I got home, I just couldn't believe I'm losing my phone, I tried swopping the batteries, and my phone instantly sprang to life! Excitedly left Daddy a note as it was 2am when my phone resurrected. Told him all I needed was a new battery, not a new phone. Whoa. God knew I couldn't afford a new phone. Daddy surprised me today. "I bought your battery." My heart did somersaults all over. I was esctatic, not about the new battery, or that I could keep my dear phone, but that Daddy and I actually communicated. For those who hadn't known, something terrible happened, and we had the biggest fight ever, since then I hardly talk to my dad, least to even sms. Mummy had always said Daddy's "Zui ying xin luan" (Mouth hard, Heart soft) He cares. Daddy's like..like my DADDY. =) The drama on screen was a nightly affair. My mum sat behind me, savouring her dumpling... (du du growls right this moment... =S) fixing her eyes intently on the tv screen. When commercial time came on, she pointed to du du and said, "Wha..du du bian da le!!" ("Wha..du du became big!!") I laughed. Told her du du has grown big since I've started at eXplorerkid. Like after a good meal, I'll sit in front of a pixelated screen and go tapping away on the keyboard. Like how can du du not surface.. We smiled. Mummy knows the changes in me, even when I don't say it. Mummy's maternal instinct I guessed. "Wha..tou fa chang le.." ("Wha..hair grown longer..") Mummy's like..like my MUMMY! HAHA. =) As I resided into the night and sat in front of yet another pixelated screen, my heart is comforted. God had orchestrated everything. He had put up a whole performance to cheer me up. It took Him the whole of the day. Even if it takes Him 10 years to cheer someone up, I believe He will. He blessed Job after all he went through. Two folds. For a minute character like me.. God bothered Himself the whole day just to plant a smile on my face. How much more blessed can I get? His act of love outstripped all things else. He wow-ed me, and keeps at it time and time again. I'm simply awestruck. [Love does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.] I'm learning this step by step. [Love is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.] I'm learning this day by day. [Love never fails.] I'm learning this lesson by lesson. [And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.] Love is amazingly beautiful. God allowed me a glimpse into the beauty of it. What does God do best? He loves. What does joc do best? I smile. =)
| MY LIFE  I am Jocelyn Hannah. I was baptised on 7th February 2010. I am 22 and still counting. I love VJBEE and we celebrate 10 years. I am amazed at everything about Korea and Korean. I still love orange, the colour. I love Da Tou, Mini Tou and new addition, Flimso. I am God given. In my life, I choose to desire God above everything else. He is no fool to lose what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose. - Jim Elliot TAG ME MY LOVELYS Aunty Ben Bing Claire Corny di Evan Fio Ian Isabelle Jere Joelle Joey Josel Kha Ning Ong Ji Pauline Phebs Prila Roy Rui Xiang Sandy Shei Pin Sin Yi Tina Zul MY MEmories January 2007 February 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 February 2009 March 2009 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 March's Events 4th April - Ong Ji's Bday 8th April - Bing and Jere's 17th Month 9th April - Mommy's Bday 12th April - Tina's Bday 19th April - School Officially Commences 22nd April - Sabrina's Bday My heart song |