Today,
I had a blast.
It's been so long since I've last played a ball game.
Amazed at how we could all come together and play a game.
I love the girls.
It's been kinda long since I've been around this many girls,
honest.
I had fun.

Bits and pieces of my life are around me.
Day to day,
I make the same prayer.
The prayer that only God will know.

As I sang,
the tunes just came,
the words just flowed,
[I need you,
I want you,
I love you.]

I'm happy with my life.
Thankful that I have a family to come home to.
I heard about Clarice's.
Honestly,
I felt like crying inside.
I wanted so much to hold her and comfort her,
even though all I saw from her was a strong front.

I've learnt to not complain of my lack.
It cannot be compared to what she'd gone through.
I worked hard,
not for money, yes,
but for material wants and all.
Others,
like her,
may work because she don't have enough.

I'm quiting one of my jobs.
I'm just gona focus on one,
and really give myself time.
Time to be with God.
Time to honestly rest.
(actually i've been sleeping alot...8-12 hours bare minimum.
fio puts it better, irregular.. hehe.)
Time to shop hard,
(window shop i mean, don't wana burn a hole in my pocket.)
Time for my friends.
Time to mambo.
Time to wait for the guy...
wait wait wait...
let me tell you about him..

bing describe:
[he'll come on an orange vespa,
wear an orange suit and shoes,
carry a bunch of orange flowers,
with orange wax on his head,
and make your heart, not you,
race.]

I replied her that if it really happens,
NOT MY HEART, BUT ME, RACE.
HAHA.
Unless, really, unless,
if it's a dare from me,
and he actually does it,
I'll be superbly touched.
Honest.

Lastly...
Time to fall in love.

God,
I'll pray the same prayer everyday.
You'll hear it everyday.
I know it won't bore you.
And I know my heart is safe in Your hands.
Amen.

[I believe protecting your heart is going all out to feel the full volume of emotions, of love, of joy, of pain, but placing everything in God. Allowing God to protect your heart as you feel the feelings you CAN feel..the risk of being hurt is always there, but God's here to protect you from pain beyond you can bear.]

I can't believe I've said such things to bing at that point of time.
Well,
told you guys...
God teaches me things along the way as well.
Just as I've spoken it to you,
I have learnt it at the same time.

Been into loads of oldies these days.
Digging up my memories.
[Good memories are pictures of an old photo album reflecting all of what God had done just to amaze you. - Joc]
I like looking back into my good memories and go...
"Wha...I can't believe that happened..."

Peeps,
being wonderwoman of two jobs,
been working 2 1/2 weeks without break,
eating the same old mee sua and chicken chop 4 out of 7 days,
I'm thankful that I live to this day.
I'm thankful that God has been around.
I'm thankful that He loves me enough to stand by me.
I know I've been well taken care of.
It's God's hands I'm in,
remember?