[The word used most in love letters is not love,
it's miss. - The Leap Years]

i've learnt some things about myself these days.
I'm garang, yet feminine,
compared to chawanmushi by Zul.
Zul: why do you like chawanmushi?
Me: It's ..er..nice?
Zul: Some more..?
Me: It's tasty?
Zul: *roll eyes* It's soft, just like you.
And why you dig further,
you'll find more and more ingredients.]
It took me quite some time to identify with chawanmushi.
I wasn't feeling delicious.

I realised we could all say one thing and change the next minute,
not literally, of course.
It's just that there's so much changes in the people around me,
that I feel I no longer that I belong to somewhere.
I don't hate changes in places,
I dread the change in people.
So much so,
that I no longer believe that one meant what one may say at times.
Guess it's the season.
I'm just learning to move on step by step with God.
Only He,
only He,
is neverchanging.

Just help me on this,
don''t promise me what you cannot fulfill.
You'll make me feel that you're changing too.
I hate this statement to the core,
[Promises are meant to be broken.]
God never breaks the promises He made.
Only man would do that.

One last thing.
God,
I pray that with everyday of my life,
You'll surprise me,
like no man could.
You'll stand by my side unwaveringly,
like no man could.
You'll provide for me,
like no man could.
You'll love me with the biggest of heart,
like no man could.
And for the man who is willing to come after me,
this is for you.
[A girl has to bury her heart so deep in God,
that he has to go through God to get it.]
The only way to my heart,
is through God.
When you've made it to my heart,
I'll know it's you.