I feel bad...
Because I was away from my blog for so long...
But....
I'M BACK!


Busy itinery.
Work.
Visit to Doulos.
Taiwanese Dramas.
My family.
My friends.
Life's simple pleasures.


I've finally finished one of the thousands of Taiwanese dramas.
It's the 2nd Taiwanese drama that I stay up late to finish.
Miss No Good's its title.
Most known it as Campus Shrewd.
The female lead, Xiao Hua, has taught me very beautiful things.
The greatest thing I've learnt,
is to be happy.


She was insulted by the famous stylist, Tang Men, in the fashion world.
She was deemed as an "Idiotic Christmas Tree".
Yet she could smile and be happy through it all.


The other girl, elegant and pretty, was jealous of her.
Because both Tang Men and the guy she likes - Jia Si Le,
fell in love with Xiao Hua.


She was lamenting and crying out to Tang Men,
"Why an ordinary girl like her can be so confident?"
Tang Men simply answered,
"It's not that she's confident of herself,
It's just that she doesn't hate herself."


Powerful.
Most of us dislike more than 1/2 of how we are.


Flabby Arms.
Muffin Hips.
Chubby Cheeks.
Chunky Calves.
My inadequacies it is.


Well,
the drama reminded me of clamhead.
Whenever I laugh at his double chin,
or commented that he seemed er..fat-ter,
he'll say, "I don't care!"
It's like my opinion does not affect who he is.
He is who he is.
It's like clamhead's happy the way he is.


Well,
Joc ain't gona care how I look either.
I'm gona take care of myself.
However way I would turn out,
I won't hate it.
I would be happy.


I would also want to learn to be happy.
Day in day out.
No point dwelling on things that just simply bring me to tears.
One way to be happy is to appreciate the people around me.


I miss God.
I miss how I was this close to Him.
*puts thumb and index finger together*
Things has got to change.
God has been around.
I need to notice His presence and not pretend that I don't see Him anymore.


I saw Doulos last week.
Couldn't have been more nostalgic.
Honestly,
I had wished I'd sailed with them.
Sailed with the purpose of helping the needy.
I miss the days when I had dial 9s,
never limped up and down the gangway,
walked through and through the ship to clean aircon filters,
played underground church,
huddled in my comfy 211 cabin,
had 'xiao qiangs' running across my face as I was asleep,
puked 7 times in one voyage,
rejoiced over people receiving Jesus Christ into their lives,
smiled and marvelled at the wonders of God,
hugged the kids, Nooa, Jaz, Sophia, Caitlyn, Daniel,
hanged out at the fun deck with Abby and Sarah,
enjoyed crazy moments with the Batangas Steppers,
ran out of the ship just half an hour before curfew time with Di to buy taiwan noodles for the last time before we left Kao Shiung,
had Hot Gigantic Yam milk tea in Taiwan,
shared the love of God to people I've never met,
witnessed countless miracles,
(on board, you'll see miracles everyday.)
experienced the life in an engine room,
sailed with over 300 brothers and sisters from 40 over countries,
stood at the bow of the ship taking in the view,
was in charge of altering the speed of the ship as we manouvered into Kao Shiung,
had the special privilege to be on board God's ship.
This list goes on.


How thankful am I?
*stretches out my arms*
This thankful.


God,
for You alone I'll live.


[It's easy to say I want to die for Christ,
but it ain't easy to say I want to live for Christ.]